Mummy Meltdowns

IMG_9031Firstly, I love being a mum & I love Emily more than the world. I don’t want people reading this thinking ‘unappreciative cow’. But there are times when I find it particular tough, it’s not always plain sailing.

Being a mum is like a rollercoaster. One minute you’re happy and feel like the luckiest person in the world, the next you’re angry and feel like ‘why me’! You honestly think you’re going crazy. I probably have a rant to Dan atleast once a day. I speak to myself and say leave the poor man alone, but it just comes out and my body feels like it’s on a fire! Before you all think, wow she needs help (believe me I’ve thought about it at times) but my friends assure me this is normal. Haha.

The Housewive

Talking of normal, I swear it’s not normal to have as much washing up and clothes to wash as I do now. Where does it all come from? I feel like all I do is clean up all the time. That or make purées that Emily won’t eat. I really did have this great ideal of having dinner on the table when dan got home and having an immaculate house. I really do get it when Dans says what have you done all day. Before I had Emily I would have asked the exact same thing. It’s crazy where time goes.

Sleep

Considering I don’t do a great deal, I’m always tired. On average I reckon I get about 6 hours sleep, now I already hear some mums shouting at this blog thinking 6 hours is a lot. Well not for me, I’m an 8 hours sleep girl and without it I feel like rubbish. I know I should go to bed earlier, but I had like 8 weeks of love island, and I couldn’t miss that. My friends were all on whatsapp talking about it, so I had to watch it live.

Weight

So firstly people like Binky Felstead, back to size 8 in 8 weeks is totally unrealistic. Who does that?! Definitely not me. 7 months on and I’m only just allowed to do exercise. Granted I’m over 3 stone lighter than when I gave birth but that’s mainly to do with breastfeeding.

I’m always going to have a mum tum, you know that pouch at the bottom of your belly, and do you know what….I’m proud of it! Our bodies go through a miracle and it’s time we start appreciating it.

Those days…

I think every mum has had them. Those days when your baby just cries for hours and you don’t know whether to scream or cry. I had one on Monday, and no matter what I did Emily just cried. You start off saying ‘there, there darling’ then it leads to ‘what is wrong with you!’ haha. Then you get that call from your husband saying I’m working late tonight! Well then you feel like the whole world is falling around you.

For me being a mum is amazing, but there are days when you think you are doing a rubbish job and those days are tough, really tough. The worst is on those days you don’t want to see anyone. I know that I should ring a friend and meet up on those days, but it’s just hard. But do you know what? I’m going to try and do that next time.

P.S

1.)  How do you hold an umbrella in torrential rain whilst pushing a buggy.

2.) How do you go for a wee when you are swimming with a baby and there’s no where to put the baby?

Until next time

xxx

 

 

Dear Emily, (Weaning)

So mummy started giving you food at 6 months.

We started with lunch, and you would only do a couple of baby spoonful’s. I cooked singular foods and puréed them for a couple of weeks to find out what you liked. Your favourites were sweet potato, butternut squash, apples & pears. You’re weren’t a big fan of strawberries, cauliflower or broccoli to start with. It took about 30-40 minutes for you to take 2 spoonful’s. The first couple of weeks felt like you would never eat food. You would close your lips so tight and kept shaking your head, to say No.

 

Then overnight it changed and you started wanting the food. Surprise surprise though, you wanted to feed yourself. So I introduced breakfast. You are not a fan of baby porridge, you are much more of a Greek yogurt and fruit girl (now you like strawberries). Which doesn’t surprise me because when I was pregnant I craved fruit all the time. Then came dinner, and we started mixing up the flavours and combing food, Ella’s kitchen & Annabel Karmel books came in very handy. You will try lots of things now, the only thing your not a fan of is cauliflower cheese.

At 7 months I now mix it up at give you finger foods such as melon, sweet potato fries (homemade), pitta etc… You love feeding yourself. I was really nervous at first that you would choke and I had my baby first aid book out in case I had to quickly do First Aid. But turns out your gag reflexes are really good. (Fingers crossed this continues).

So your food routine now looks a bit like this….

6am 7oz bottle

7am Breakfast

10.30am 7oz bottle

12.30 Lunch

3pm 7oz bottle

5pm Dinner

I have no idea if what I am doing is right, but it seems to work for us. I know what you’re thinking, how does mummy fit all this in!  Daddy thinks all I do is go out for lunch and coffee all the time… Well this on top of your naps and it’s actually very tough. I also started off making all your food, after about a month I succumbed to Ella (I only use the pouches sometimes) Ella’s kitchen pouches are 100% food, unlike the others. You read the back of them and they contain things I’ve never heard of. That being said in order for Ella’s kitchen not to contain the other stuff it must be cooked at a really high temperature which takes away some of the goodness. But… pouches are sometimes so much easier .

You hate water, I’ve tried it in your bottle and I’ve bought about 100 cups but you are not a fan. You do have the odd day when you’ll drink it, and I throw a party and get so excited thinking I’ve cracked it. Little does mummy know you’re luring me into a false pretence. Haha.

I do wonder what you’re like with food when you read this. Will you still eat everything or will you become more fussy? Time will tell my little one.

Love you

mummy x

Dear Emily, (6 months)

OMG!!! Where has the last 6 months gone. Time is going crazy fast.

So we got back from America (where you were amazing) but I knew it couldn’t last. You have serious jetlag, and keep waking up twice in the night. I know I need to stop feeding you in the night, but every time I try and stop I am just too tired to pace the floor with you, plus your cry is like opening a tap on mummy’s milk and so I give in. Your dad has more patience than me, so he has tried a couple of nights and now you don’t get fed in the night and sleep through from 7.30-5am.

A lot has been going on for you this month with regards to sleep time. You are now in your own room… Ekkkk!! We’ve set up the angel care monitor just for that little piece of mind. I know there is mixed debate about the angel care monitor. You didn’t have one for the first 6 months, but I’m not 100% comfortable with you in your own room and it puts me at ease. Mummy also tried controlled crying, I lasted 3 days and decided you’re too young. You weren’t really having any of it, and screamed the house down, so my thinking is try again in a few months. We can’t do everything all at once, hey.

Now on to your development… You’re now grabbing things with two hands which is exciting. Although pinching mummy’s arms is your new favourite pass time and it really hurts. You’re mastering the art of sitting up. We put the breastfeeding cushion behind you just incase you fall over. You are so much more alert now, and love all your toys. Your bubble sensory lamp (Argos, is now a big hit (finally), you also like Vtech Crawl & learn rotating ball (£16 from Entertainer). No signs of crawling yet though, I do try different activities to help you, but you have no interest haha. You are definitely stubborn, and I wonder where you get that from???  You are however becoming more vocal, and are starting to make the cutest sounds.

You have also started trying different foods, but that’s for another page…

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With your development, you always seem to be a few weeks behind your friends. I think the sleepyhead stops you from moving in your sleep, which might be hindering you rolling? I hate to admit it, but mummy does think why isn’t emily doing that? You’ll learn one of mummy’s bad traits is she’s competitive and it’s not a nice quality. You will learn to do things in your own time and your own way and mummy needs to chill. No two babies are the same, and I shouldn’t compare you to other babies. You might be a couple weeks behind but you are the smilest, happiest baby I’ve ever met and I wouldn’t change a thing about you.

Love you more than the world

xxx

 

Dear Emily, (your first holiday)

First Holiday : 5 months Old (For 3 and a bit Weeks to US.)

So your first time on a plane and you fly upper class to New York!!! Daddy had airmiles so we thought why not, don’t get used to that though because by the time you read this we will probably be poor because mummy keeps buying too much stuff and daddy is threatening divorce (only playing).

On the flight we were expecting the worst, I had two bags of toys, a wrap carrier thing, bottles and I even brought dummies just incase. But you were amazing!! You were quite happy just chilling watching movies. We fed you on the way up and down, but the pressure didn’t seem to bother you. You even adapted to the time zone difference… I mean, how? I actually got a little concerned you were being too good and something was wrong. Your car seat was a god send, because otherwise getting taxi’s would have been a nightmare. We took you strolling around New York and we showed you were mummy & daddy got engaged. You even travelled on the subway. Getting around isn’t as easy as it used to be, but we managed. We took you out for dinners and made sure we got you back home at a resonanble time.

Then we flew from New York to Florida and the fun began. You were not happy, and we were trying our best to entertain you. I overheard a lady in front saying she gives her kids benedril before a flight! Why does everyone have an opinion and feel the need to express it??!!! Especially strangers!! Anyways we arrived in Florida, Daddy lost mummy’s wallet on the plane and so we didn’t get off to the best of starts, needless to stay mummy was very angry. Unfortunately you and me seem to be moody at the same time.

Florida was amazing, your auntie & uncle loved you very much but I was overwhelmed with how much your cousins love you. Channon & Naomi were fighting over who could cuddle and give you your bottle, you’re a very loved little girl. The heat in Florida was a bit of a worry for me, as it was in the 30’s. On really hot nights you just slept in a rest. Also on holiday, I seemed to forget time… this meant all of a sudden I would look at the time and think, god I need to feed you or change your nappy and then id get in a faff… I know what your thinking, mummy, faff, never! haha….

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Then the time came for mummy & daddy to go to Nashville. WITHOUT YOU 😬 We went for 3 nights, and I was wracked in guilt for leaving you. Although we were having an amazing time, I did say to your dad shall we go home a day early to see you. He wasn’t having any of it, and actually got a bit upset with mummy as I should have just relaxed. I think when you’re a mummy relaxing, is actually a tough job. You didn’t care, you were having a brilliant time. You even covered auntie claire in a gigantic projectile poo 😂 When we got back, you sat up on your own!! Wow, I got so excited. Little did I know you did it in the 3 days I was away from you. Why does that always seem to happen.

 

We then went down to Key West, it was such a long drive for you but your lovely cousins sat in the back with you and we’re keeping you entertained. This is when we found your love for finding nemo. When we got back to Florida, you went to all the parks and went on some rides. Your favourite was the new avatar ride, as its sensory overload it was brilliant seeing your little eyes light up.

Now don’t get me wrong, we had a very different holiday, than we used to have. But you were so chilled on holiday. I couldn’t have wished for a more well behaved baby. I hope it continues, but we will see. Isn’t it good baby naughty toddler? 😬

Love Mummy x

Few Items that we found useful (not including bottles, nappies etc) ….

– Car Seat (wrap in bubble wrap and buy a check in bag, £10 from Amazon)

– Stroller (that your not fussed about. We bought a silvercross zest.)

– Sleepyhead (god send, emily’s home away from home, we just put it in the travel cot)