Dear Emily, (8-12 Weeks)

0D1DFA9A-4C67-43DE-8470-F7B9B17F2245.jpgHorray!!! I can finally put you down for 15-20 minutes. I love you more than the world, but it feels so good that I can put you on the play mat without  you crying. You also now love the vibrating chair you have. Bad mum alert! You love being put infront of the TV, I think it’s the bright colours but you find it mezmerising. Before I was a mum I swore that I wouldn’t let you watch TV & here I am 8 weeks in putting your chair infront of it. Ekkkk 😬

Now you might remember I told you about only taking milk from the right boob? Well mummy got that sorted. We went to a craniosacral therapist, and he fixed you. When you came out of mummy, you had your arm up by your head, apparently you had dislodged the opposite shoulder and had a pulled muscle??? It’s all sorted and now mummy has two droopy boobies rather than one. (Well at least there even now) Talking about feeding…. At 10 weeks we decided to give you a formula bottle at night. I’ve heard so many others talking about formula knocking their baby out, I thought I want some of that. True to its word, it does. Since having it you sleep a good 6 hours!! Result!!! 👍🏻

I do think formula has affected your poo though. You now have explosive poos. We were in Guildford, and you had the biggest poo. So I went to house of Fraser to change you. OMG! It was everywhere!! Stupid mummy forgot to bring other clothes, so I had to try and wash your clothes and I had to put them back on you. I ended up going straight home. Note to self, always pack spare clothes.

Although that outing wasn’t great, generally you are much happier out and about. Everyone comments how chilled you are! Why aren’t you like that at home? It’s like you put on a little show for everyone. We are out so much though, to be honest that’s fine with me. We just signed up to busy lizzy in Horsham. We do baby massage & baby karma. Mummy tried mummy & me Pilates but you were having none of it, it wasn’t enjoyable having a screaming  baby for an hour. So we will try that in a month. You also stated swimming at 10 weeks, you love the water. I was never a strong swimmer, and it’s really important to me that you are. We do keep busy, plus we go to lunch or coffee at least 3 times a week with friends. Daddy says we do too much but it helps my sanity, and you like it so why not. Now don’t get me wrong, when we have a day of nothing we lie in mummy’s bed until about 11!

I love our little life, I’m not even fussed about going out and drinking (yes I love you that much). But it’s not always peachy! When you scream for hours (generally between 5-7pm) I literally want to cry. I shouted ‘SHUT UP’ the other day and I felt so guilty afterwards, I didn’t want to put you to bed because I wanted you to know how much I loved you. Speaking to friends apparently it happens to them too, which is nice to know I’m not the only one.

You are changing so much already, slow down please xxxx



Useful Purchases in our First 3 Months!

My new favourite hobby is shopping. I had a problem before, but now even my neighbour has commented on how many parcels I get delivered 😬 For all you new mums out there, here are some items that were useful for us. All babies are different, so what works for some, may not work for others. By no means am I an expert and I’d love to hear what worked & didn’t for you.


We started off with a Moses basket but Emily was having none of it! Dan didn’t want me to buy a sleepyhead as he said it was too much money. Funny, when you get no sleep you are willing to pay anything for a nights sleep. So after 3 nights of no sleep, he caved and told me to order it and try it. For the first week the sleepyhead was in our bed. Then we decided it was time for a crib. The Chico next to me was expensive but made me feel at ease knowing I could see her. At first we attached it to the bed. At 9 weeks I was ready to put the sides up. Sleeping Bags are also a god send! Emily didn’t go into hers until about 4 weeks, but you can buy newborn ones which are smaller from JoJo Maman Bebe.

Chicco Crib Next To Me – £169 from John Lewis.

Sleepy Head – £120 from John Lewis

Sleeping Bags (recommend buying 2) – £15 Mamas & Papas

Monitor – £114.99 Motorola Video Camera from Argos

Ewen the Sheep – £29.99 Amazon Prime (Now this didn’t work for us, but really worked for a few friends).

Night Light – £13.99 Amazon Prime (Good for Night feeds)


The pain when you first start breastfeeding is tough! It’s not as easy as NCT make out so be prepared. At about 8 weeks the pain stoped for me and it became a litter easier. Right from the start, I expressed and Emily had 1 expressed bottle a night. It made me feel more comfortable knowing how much she had. Plus it’s really nice to get Dan involved. At about 10 weeks we introduced a formula feed at night time as it seems to fill her up more which means more sleep for me! 😀👍🏻

Lanolin – £10 Any pharmacy/supermarket. This cream really does help soothe your nipples. Everyone I have spoken to found it useful.

Munchkin Latch Bottles – £14.95 Amazon Prime  ( We started with Teat 2, as Teat 1 was too slow) Great bottles for breast fed babies. Emily wouldn’t take tommee tippee which are a much cheaper alternative.

Sterilising Bags – £10 Amazon Prime (when you only need to do 1 bottle a night , this option is way quicker)

Medala Pump – £99.99 Amazon Prime (you can also get a double pump which is quicker)

Perfect Prep Machine – £59.99 Amazon Prime (only needed for formula)

Storage Bags – for milk

Breast Feeding Pads – Any pharmacy/supermarket

Rocking Feeding Chair – ? I borrowed this from a friend.

Washing & Changing

First few weeks we just used cotton wool and water.We started bathing Emily twice a week after a few weeks. Then about 8 weeks everynight, but more so for the routine. We didn’t use any products until about 10 weeks and now we use them every other bath. Things like clothes (you’ll want newborn & 0-3 months), nail scissors, change mat, Nappy bags, sudacrem, cotton wool balls etc are standard.

Pampers Premium Protection – I tried Tesco, Aldi & Sainsburys and pampers were the best for me.

Yippie Toes Bath – £13.99 Amazon prime It still took me 8 weeks to let go of her.

Water Wipes – £17 Amazon Prime (buy in bulk.)

Childs Farm Sensitive Baby Wash – £3.99 Any supermarket or Pharmacy (Apparently Johnson & Johnson shouldn’t be used on newborns because it has chemicals in??)

Tommee Tippee Bath Thermometer – £9.99 Amazon Prime (I didn’t buy one until recently, & everytime I bathed her I worried the tempreture wasn’t right. This just eases my mind. It also shows room tempreture.)

Non Bio washing powder & Comfort Pure fabric softener .

Grape Seed Oil – £5.99 Holland & Barrett. Great for baby massage & dry skin .

Dentinox (For cradle cap) – This was recommended to me, but I’m yet to find someone who sticks it. I’ve tried everywhere.

Change Bag – £65 Jojo Maman Bebe. Get a back pack one , sooo much easier.

Braun Thermoscan 7 – £38.99 Amazon Prime

Toys / Development

First 8 Weeks they don’t do much and we really let Emily do as she wished. By 8 weeks Emily really started enjoying the toys people had bought her. In hindsight I would have done more tummy time early on as we struggled with it to start with.

Tummy Time Roller – £14.99 mothercare (OMG – Amazing! Really helps neck & chest strength. Tummy time is much more enjoyable.)

Soft Toy & Rattle – £7.27 Amazon Prime

Playmat – we got given this, but I recommend one that goes in a triangle at the top.

Wrist & Feet Rattles – £12.99 Amazon Prime

Sensory Light – (Present)

Bouncing Chair – Mamas & Papas

Baby Mobile – We didn’t get one because I was scared of it being over her. Big mistake! I’m getting one this week. Get one that can hooks on car seat and play Matt.

Baby Sparks App – £22 for the year (gives you development information & activities to do every day)


Car Seat – £ Isofix , Maxicosi  (From a family member)

Mirror for car (Present)

Pram – £450 Bugaboo (2nd hand, from Facebook sight. However it was a friend of a friend, so we knew it was in good condition)

I’m sure as soon as I post this I’ll think of other stuff, but for now I hope this helps new mums X

Dear Emily, (4-8 Weeks)

To be honest not a lot really happens during this time. I thought by now , I’d be back doing exercise and you’d be taking interest in stuff… Yeah right, you don’t even like being put down. All these toys are wasted on you, as you’re just not interested in anything other than cuddles. You are really clever though as you know exactly when mummy & daddy are eating because you wake up and want food too. And forget a feeding routine, you’re the boss in this household and what you want goes!

We are however trying to get you in a sleep routine, because humans can’t live on 2hrs sleep. At about 5 weeks you were ready for a sleeping bag , which is by far the best thing we have bought. Since being in it you sleep from 11-3, 4-7am. It also helps that I express about 140ml of milk, which knocks you out. Although I quickly learnt not to be smug about anything because nothing lasts. For about 3 weeks I thought mummy was in charge – but don’t worry you soon put me in my place!

The only thing Mummy is in charge of is worrying. On journeys over 20 minutes I’m a bit of a worrier, I end up pulling over and check you’re still breathing. Never thought I’d worry about things like that. I can’t even bath you on my own (you love baths by the way) as it’s tricky to splash water and hold you.  Turns out I’m also a bit emotional when it comes to you. I went out for the first time at 6 weeks and left you with grandma, and I actually cried! I was only gone 3 hours. I would have royally taken the mickey out of one of my friends for doing that.

We had your 6 week check up! Who knew that you had criteria you had to pass?? Apparently you’re meant to smile, follow things and have a stronger neck. You failed all of the above, & to top it off you have a big head!? So we are being referred to Worthing hospital. The same week you puked up blood, I’ve never been so authoritative with a doctors receptionist. Turns out it’s common and was your stomach lining, it went the same day with some medicine.

Until next time x



Aftermath of Birth

So your pregnant for 9 months (or there about), go through labour and have a new born to content with. On top of all of this, your body feels like you have gone 10 rounds with Tyson Fury.

There were things that I was excited about …(I’m 10 weeks on and still no chance)

  • Sleeping on my front. – unfortunately my boobs had other ideas.
  • Getting out of bed without rolling sideways.- I can’t even get off the floor without help.
  • Loosing weight and getting my stomach back. –  You guessed it no chance!!!

I think I had unrealistic expectations.

To top it all off, 5 weeks after giving birth I suffered a prolapse. The midwife says ‘are you doing your pelvic floor?’ you smile and say yeah of course, do it once and then forget.. I had been on a long walk in Brighton and all of a sudden I felt a drop down below…. The reason why I am writing this, is because when it happened I felt so alone, I had never heard of anyone else this had happened to. I put off going to the doctors for nearly a week, because I was scared and embarrassed. No one talks about the downstairs area, and yet the poor bugger goes through a hell of a lot it deserves to be spoken about. People ask you how you’re recovering and you just smile and say yeah fine. No one expects you to say, ‘oh yeah actually my vagina fell out’. When I first found out, I of course googled it and oh my god I needed a hysterectomy! Google is not my friend when it comes to medical conditions. I won’t get into detail, but if this happens to you and you want to talk, do contact me. With exercises you can reverse the prolapse, so don’t leave it too long before seeking help.

Its hard to know if you are doing your pelvic floor exercises right, so here is what I got from the doctors.IMG_6438.JPG