Firstly, I love being a mum & I love Emily more than the world. I don’t want people reading this thinking ‘unappreciative cow’. But there are times when I find it particular tough, it’s not always plain sailing.
Being a mum is like a rollercoaster. One minute you’re happy and feel like the luckiest person in the world, the next you’re angry and feel like ‘why me’! You honestly think you’re going crazy. I probably have a rant to Dan atleast once a day. I speak to myself and say leave the poor man alone, but it just comes out and my body feels like it’s on a fire! Before you all think, wow she needs help (believe me I’ve thought about it at times) but my friends assure me this is normal. Haha.
Talking of normal, I swear it’s not normal to have as much washing up and clothes to wash as I do now. Where does it all come from? I feel like all I do is clean up all the time. That or make purées that Emily won’t eat. I really did have this great ideal of having dinner on the table when dan got home and having an immaculate house. I really do get it when Dans says what have you done all day. Before I had Emily I would have asked the exact same thing. It’s crazy where time goes.
Considering I don’t do a great deal, I’m always tired. On average I reckon I get about 6 hours sleep, now I already hear some mums shouting at this blog thinking 6 hours is a lot. Well not for me, I’m an 8 hours sleep girl and without it I feel like rubbish. I know I should go to bed earlier, but I had like 8 weeks of love island, and I couldn’t miss that. My friends were all on whatsapp talking about it, so I had to watch it live.
So firstly people like Binky Felstead, back to size 8 in 8 weeks is totally unrealistic. Who does that?! Definitely not me. 7 months on and I’m only just allowed to do exercise. Granted I’m over 3 stone lighter than when I gave birth but that’s mainly to do with breastfeeding.
I’m always going to have a mum tum, you know that pouch at the bottom of your belly, and do you know what….I’m proud of it! Our bodies go through a miracle and it’s time we start appreciating it.
I think every mum has had them. Those days when your baby just cries for hours and you don’t know whether to scream or cry. I had one on Monday, and no matter what I did Emily just cried. You start off saying ‘there, there darling’ then it leads to ‘what is wrong with you!’ haha. Then you get that call from your husband saying I’m working late tonight! Well then you feel like the whole world is falling around you.
For me being a mum is amazing, but there are days when you think you are doing a rubbish job and those days are tough, really tough. The worst is on those days you don’t want to see anyone. I know that I should ring a friend and meet up on those days, but it’s just hard. But do you know what? I’m going to try and do that next time.
1.) How do you hold an umbrella in torrential rain whilst pushing a buggy.
2.) How do you go for a wee when you are swimming with a baby and there’s no where to put the baby?
Until next time